Today would have been my 31st Wedding Anniversay....that is if I had lived that long married to the man. Thankfully, I only spent 14 years in hell, and many more recovering with surgeries and therapy. I am stronger now and feel it is time to again pick up this sword for women of my state and women across the United States. It is important to me to teach other women in the State of Colorado about my case.
Mine was believed to be the first because of the changes made to the Sexual Assault statues in Colorado in the late 80's, which do not allow marital status to be a defense for this most horrible crime. I am no longer a victim, but a survivor of marital sexual assault. My children are all doing well. We have survived both the abuse and then the system which we had to avail to emancipate ourselves from the situation.
If you are a victim or survivor of marital sexual assault, contact a Victim Advocate who deals specifically in sexual assault. I found since I was primarily a sexual assault victim, battered womens shelters did not have the training to assist me.
In Denver, contact the Rape Assistance and Awarness Program at 303-322-7273. Se Habla Espanol tambien. They have a 24 hour hotline.
Call your local police department. Ask for a female officer if you prefer, but make the call. The life you save may be your own and your family's. I could run a ton of statistics at you, but that isn't what you need. You need to know you are still in danger and must get help. Whether you decide to prosecute or not. Your safety and the safety of any children you have are your primary concern.
For reference the Sexual Assault Code is found in CRS 18-3-402(1) and my case number is 92CR1178. However you will not be able to view this case unless you are an officer of the court for reasons of privacy which are the law in Colorado.
My Best to each of you who read this and find the path I did. I would not have suceeded if it weren't for the dedicated Victim Advocates at the Distric Attorney's Office, and the Larimer County Sexual Assault Victim Advocate program. Also the civil attorney's who took up this terrible sword and literally saved my life. To each of them I again after all these years say a heartfelt thank you.

Rape In Marriage
Dear Heavenly Father hear my cries,
My fragile spirit suffers and dies.
From a secret I carry in shame,
Of life so filled with torture and pain.
Through blood and tears the violence tells,
Of fear so great that terror swells
For one who shared the marrieage vows,
Does forcefully take what nature allows.
This once holy union created for sharing in life,
Has turned to anger spent on me his wife.
Through tears I beg, In fear I plead
With cruelty he answers, mopping up his need.
So please dear Lord give me the courage
To heal and grow, break free this bondage.
As I ask only for dignity and respect
And gentle love given in mutual consent.
© 1992, 1993, 1995, 2001, 2006 Christine McClintock DeLay



